I couldn't be with you even if I wanted

by June Miller

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Finale 06:45
The last town out of real, leaves breath a dress of silence: that's all we have. Don't ask why, I can't reply, your words echo my distance. I'd fall apart. All the signs have gone drowning as the rain floods and soaks the heart. When you'll hear its voice and find a secret switch deep inside your brain, call my arms home. Call my arms home, heart and soul tied. How was your mouth before... The sand draws closer as we play our game. With the eyes tight closed I'll step inside the storm, you'll grab my shoulder and further will mean together. Call my arms home, heart and soul tied, close your eyes before they'll read my pain. Call my arms home, heart and soul tied. How was your mouth before my name?
Zen Gain 05:29
Cover up the wrecked plans you've tried this far out of harm. All their eyes are welcome, welcome back the hope you left behind. Fast and shut like a car about to crush. Buried in your chest lie the broken glasses and the shelves full of garbage you forgot, dreams you deny, you felt dead because of. Caught by the cold you fought the night. a storm passing by caused days to hold on for solutions you couldn't find. (Carry on and shut it off and start it over again) You scream and shout to the sun to stop shine, choke on day's breath and the thoughts it will cause. Turn back you're cornered behind their lines, tears grow ocean size. Doubt rise as cold knives it blinds your eyes, you fight this war of nerves.
I'll grow the stars till dawn. (I'm falling with my arms crossed) My memory's broken, the past is like filtered through a frame of glass buried in a coffee jar. (Starving, stealing cold rhymes) Penrose stairs I walk, I rise while I fall lost in a maze of chords. (Failing, fishing the sky)
Cold Air 05:23
Countless stars, here we are far lullabies running after their melodies, every single note. I'm aware of that. Now our bounds are breaking slowly turning into sad ghosts as our ending comes near. I'm glad I'm feeling incomplete but it's over, now it's over. I'm not that amazing but I won't let our efforts flow, not a single one! I started running along the sea to shorten the distance between your heart and mine. Five miles still weren't enough, seven lasted half the call I didn't made. Nine and my legs lost weight, ten speeded up my heart but it wasn't the pace. I ate a snowflake: tasted like you'll be there, in the next breath I'll take. And I realized you are cold air.
Howard 05:13
It' been two days since I run into you at the market. We've been of our own for five years now and our bounds lost their meanings. We're now on our own for better times and I still don't give you the answer you desired. Do you remember when the two of us met? You were brilliant, witty, gorgeous to look at... as there was much to fill that empty and be sure that our love would make it through. You called me precious and passionately declared that you love everything about me. Something's changed. I do like you, as you pointed out a number of times, you're good company but I don't need to spend prolonged lengths of time with you. Your touch does not leave me aching for more and your easiness can't thrill me. You have many good things but you do not know how to fascinate me still. Will you remember what we've been through together? We're not just the reason why it's so hard to be as happy as before when I loved to be loved by you.
Distances 03:00
Words came out scattering. A wardrobe of cold rites stayed. (I cannot wait in my room consuming what I've found) I wonder if you've recalled that sign in all the clattering, hordes of hopeless sounds saved in a moment. I'm home and I am far, I'm home and far away from me. I'm holding on and wait for the world's end to shake you up this time. I'll keep you out of reach and leave, I'll keep you out of reach and breath on my own.
The Firefly 03:39
And I would stare at the grains of light in that silent space of your heart. More than once I tried stretching my hands out in the dark and I touched nothing, you were just beyond my grasp. And as time keeps passing by it began to take a form. The way a light still finds its birth in shadow slow a firefly gains her way back to the night. Naked now but still so far. You wear the soft light of the moon. Shapes of that memory spreading on your skin. The frozen night holds your newborn flesh. (If death is a part of life and soaks in our lungs like dust than I would look straight up high chasing your trail of light)


OuZeL is proud to announce the first full-length album of June Miller - "I couldn't be with you even if I wanted", produced by Chris Crisci of The Appleseed Cast, and presented in a gorgeous digipack designed by Legno (Jacopo of Fine Before You Came).

The official release date is scheduled for September 1st, 2012.



released September 20, 2012

recorded by June Miller at G.Grama Studio, Carrara, Italy
mixed by Chris Crisci at Toyshop, Lawrence KS, U.S.A.
mastered by Michael Fossenkemper at Turtle Tone Studio, New York NY, U.S.A.

all music by June Miller: Ale, Fede, Giacchetta, Fede, Matteo.
all lyrics by Seba.
all cellos by Simona Motta.
"Distances" mixed and post-produced by Giorgio Borgatti.
photos by David Lenaz.
artwork by Legno.
released by OuZeL rec with the support of Upupa Produzioni.


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